Sunday, March 09, 2008
3:51 PM
the more i think about my a level results and my life in general up till now, the more i see God's hand in it, even though i couldn't see it before.
believe it or not, 2 years ago, although most people thought i did well for o levels, i actually did not meet up to my aims. but now i see, the reason i didn't do any better, was because i was hopelessly dependent on my own strength then. God was gracious to give me those o level results even though i wasn't drawing strength from Him. the b3 for chinese on my first take was definitely the biggest blow to me, that was a wake up call, and by His grace i got a1 on the second take, and it even ended up being in my L1R5 (can you believe it!!) i grew a lot closer to God through that first b3, though not enough to make me fully surrender my studies to Him. i realise 2 years ago i wanted personal glory. good thing i didn't get it. i'm so thankful for the many hard knocks God gave me to make me realise it's not by my strength, but by His. it has always been.
i see how being in ac moulded me. i'm so glad i listened to His voice to be in a jc that gives glory to Him. there were a number of upsetting experiences in j1 especially, but all necessary for growth. ac has such a supportive environment. even little things like your classmates' company during lessons is such a gift. how nice to move from class to class with your friends! now in uni where we don't have base classes anymore, i can appreciate even more the camaraderie we were so blessed with in jc.
and so as i've got my a level results now, i'm so thankful for what i have. hearing all the talk about how this new syllabus we took resulted in the year's results not being comparable to the preceding years, i have to say my results are definitely by God's grace.
one of the subject grade i didn't expect much of was srp. i did put in a lot of effort into my report. and i remember my oral presentation was right after i received a b for a level chinese. i remember being so crushed, but it also made me more determined to do well for the presentation. thank God for helping me focus during that presentation and seeing me through, it went well! (thanks to my friends who smsed me too, you know who you are (: ). but i had the impression i wouldn't get a distinction because my project wasn't in the popular bio/chem fields, and at ssef no one took notice of it (compared to the rest anyway). as it turned out, some who picked up awards at ssef didn't do so well for the a level srp grade. so wow that grade for srp is especially sweet. thank God for it!
as for how i'm adjusting here, i'd say i really like melbourne. thank God that school has started cos it means i've been meeting more people. i've even bumped into 2 of my mg handbells juniors (: and it's great to be working my brain after bumming around for so long after a levels hehe. loving it here doesn't mean i don't miss you guys back in singapore though. i think about my friends back there everyday! you guys are in my prayers. love you all (:
